It is better to go through 'Bhakta-Charitras' óbiographies of devotees in Srimad Bhagavatam, as we get impetus from Bhaktas how they attained God.
When one can see drawbacks and painfulness of enjoyment, one cannot wilfully take recourse to this. An enslaved Jiva cannot rescue himself from the clutches of Maya by his own capability, as long as he remains averse to Sri Krishna. Every enslaved Jiva is attracted by lust - desire for money, woman, name and fame. Only a sincere, completely surrendered soul can rescue himself from the clutches of Maya by the grace of Sri Krishna and His Absolute Counterpart Gurudeva. 'Saranagati' is the Divine Panacea of all diseases. Invoking 'Sri Krishna' from the core of heart is the best expression of 'Saranagati'. I am worried to know the deteriorated conditions of your health and the health of your wife. This world is not the permanent place of our stay. That which is born will die one day. The wise do not mourn for that which is inevitable. 'Jivas' come and go as per desire of Supreme Lord Sri Krishna. Out of ignorance we think them to be ours and become attached to them. All Jivas are eternally related with Sri Krishna. When Jivas, by their relative independence, become averse to Sri Krishna they become enveloped by the illusory energy of Supreme Lord Sri Krishna and are passing through cycles of births and deaths. We have got this precious human Birth to rescue ourselves from this severe bondage and take absolute shelter at the Lotus Feet of Sri Krishna which can only bestow us absolute bliss.